i just got up and its 1:22pm. now how am i going to get up at 5am tomorrow. =_=
i need to study for stats today. but before that theres really great food! honey bbq wings, watermelon, green tea. yummmm =0

i couldnt sleep because i only ran four miles this week so far because of stupid work as well as other plans, obligations and whatever else. i couldnt sleep on my bed because my legs felt like they were just.....they felt horrible, i felt horrible. so i basically went running, a little past 4 in the morning. i know its crazy, its ridiculous, but now i feel so refreshed!!!!! ahhhh! running is really my therapy for everything.

napping everywhere
ive been falling asleep everywhere, any place i could find. standing, sitting, lying down, in any positions. yup, robert wood johnson university hospital, youre getting the best of me.
work is getting a little tedious though. but its much better than anything else i could possibly have.
going to sleep now. im looking foward to sleeping in (sleeping past 5am) on thursday. thank goodness. im also looking forward to my best friend RUNNING. i havent run in two days because of this whole getting up at 5am thing. im just too tired if im only sleeping 5 hrs a day. its a horrendous feeling not getting enough sleep and not running. two of the most important things in my life.

Running&Parks

Yay! More blogging about running. I was reading other runners' blogs, and I realized (well I knew before too) that runners like to run in the park. Although on average I probably go to Roosevelt park for a run like once a week, I much rather run on the road, more specifically the sidewalk of the street. For some reason I don't feel much energy to run whenever I do run in the park. Weird, huh?

Wow, that was one of the many best runs I've ever been on. The distance wasn't that remarkable. 3 miles, my routine. However for some reason I just feel so good on the run. I didn't want it to end, but it was like 11 already and there was only a few cars on the road. O_O I needed to get home for my safety. Today's kind of humid so my shirt is soaked with sweat. Gotta shower now. =)I like how I wash my hair strictly and entirely based on my running schedule. As in, I wash my hair after each run. If I don't run on a particular day then I don't wash my hair that day. Therefore, I have been washing my hair 5 -6 times a week so far this summer. I do, though, shower once, if not twice, a day even if I don't run that day. Don't worry, I am very hygienic. =D

I borrowed this very interesting book from church last night. It teaches you many short, yet, very important lessons about life, how to overcome hardships and such. I love it. The only problem is, at the end of every lesson, the author relates everything he just talked about to religion, the Bible and such. Not that it's a bad thing, but my point of view as well as my perception of the world are very scientific. Heck, I don't even believe in fate. When two people meet and "fall in love" or whatever, a lot of people think it's fate that they happen to meet each other, that they were together at the same place at the same time. However I just think that's chance. Let's say they met at a bagel shop ( LOVE bagels <3). The girl went to the bagel shop because she goes there to get breakfast every morning. The guy happened to be there because he drove by and decided that he didn't eat breakfast at home as usual and decided to get a bagel. The way I see it everything is chance. It's also calculations. The girl has a very high chance of meeting people at that particular bagel shop because she's there almost every morning. Whereas the guy has a low chance because he doesn't buy bagels there very often. I don't explain things well so all that might sound like nonsense but I understand.
In other news, I am pursuing other hobbies this summer in addition to the few that I already have. I am going to learn to draw. I do think I have an artistic side but I definitely have to work on it. I want to use pencils to sketch people and objects. I am not really into paints all that much. Another hobby that I am about to pursue is to lose my damn accent. I tried it last summer but I guess that 10 days was just not enough. I got whole new system though.
ALSO in other news, I spent a good amount of money on alcohol and mixers today. I made myself pina colada and mojito - mint. Very good stuff. =)
It's like 10 at night. I am going for a late-night run. I am definitely looking forward to it.

I am not feeling so great today. Something happened. Well, so I didn't go running as usual because I just didn't feel like it. I felt lazy and listless. To clear my head, I drove around town, and ended up in the park. It was almost 9 so it was almost completely dark outside. I saw this guy running. He was definitely working up a sweat and it saddened me that I didn't go running today because something stupid happened. =`( I would go right now but it's like 10 at night. So I will go for a run first thing tomorrow. I still need to run just because something unpleasant happens. I need to remember that running is what got me through so many hard times in my life (in the past year and a half anyway). This is something that will only make me feel bad for today; it won't go on past today. I am older now I really know better.
One good thing that happened today was I got my Hamsa bracelet in the mail, straight from Israel. I am never going to take it off, well, except when I am in the IV room making IV bags then I am required to take any kind of wristbands or bracelets off. =___=

The most important thing in life is to be honest with yourself, and that can be hard to do at times, but I did it today!

Today hasn't exactly been a good day. At least I ran today. It wasn't a good run but I tried, given the circumstance. My body is tired.

Dating&Relationships

I thought I knew a decent number of things about relationships, since I've been in a couple, regardless of how dysfunctional they were and how immature I was back then. But I had definitely been living in a cave as far as relationships and dating are concerned. In the past month or so I've learned more about relationships and dating than I did my whole life. I've been learning through books(mostly. very very goo, EYE-OPENING books), my personal experience, other people's experiences as well as various other sources. I now have a brand-new outlook on relationships and dating. Things like that are pretty much subjective. There is no right or wrong, or good or bad. It's your own opinion and how you feel that matter. I am very glad I am learning and discovering things that I was never exposed to.
Moreover, I noticed that my outlook on happiness has change quite a lot. I am allocating my time to do things/activities that I never thought about doing, and they are looking good and promising. Well, and today I learned how to make IV bags. Completely unrelated but interesting stuff regardless.
Tomorrow I don't have to be up till 8am!! woot!

why is it raining?!?!??!! i need to go for a run i didnt even run yesteday?!?! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im feeling very miserable right now.

Still Running

Even though I haven't updated this blog in a week and a half, I have been running. I didn't run Thursday and Friday of last week and Wednesday this week. I took those three days as rest days so that my muscles can properly repair and take a break. Running magazines suggest taking rest days as oppose to running every day.
6/6 - Lakeview 5K
6/9 - RVRR Summer Cross Country Series Race #1

These are the wo races I've run in the past several days. Now that I started running 5K races again (since high school), I have a better idea of what I can do to improve my time.

Running (among a few other things) makes me believe that I can handle everything on my own, and that I am one of the strongest people I know. With that kind of mentality, I can really get what I want while trying to live every day to the fullest and doing whatever that makes me happy.

I love running. It makes me complete.